Ive always had this feeling or aspiration that whatever I've wanted in life wasn't really a crazy lot. Cozy life with people I enjoy around me, a small place to call my own or even with roommates. Working at a company that I find genuine value it, namely video games these days as they provide a genueine form of escapism to this shitty world, and just living a not crazy wild life style. I just feel as the years go on the system just wants to drain every single last drop out of you. It's extremely hard just to want a normal life. It feels like all it is is getting beaten down by the world over and over again. Whether it's shitty politicans, a global pandemic taking years away from us, or any other shitty awful financial deal. It sucks. Nothing is working out how it should and its never going to get better. We get there's problems but change feels impossible. I just want to have a normal life.